Ahhh...to be a kid again!

Today was a snow day...great for kids, especially since snow is an oddity around here. It will be a long time before we see it again anywhere near our homes. It's so different from our northern friends who (especially by this time) are sick of snow and cold. Here though, two days ago it was in the mid 70's, and today...snow! As a teacher the day was long and hard (try keeping their attention vs. snow falling). But their excitement reminds me of how fun snow can be...remembering how fun as a kid it was to play in the snow, no matter what the temperature or how cold we were. I remember ice skating until my toes were so cold they hurt. Funny how things lose their appeal and fun aspect as we get older. Ahh...to be a kid again!

Comeback

Funny, sometimes I wish I could be mean. I have a very hard time being mean even to those who are mean to me. Really...deep down inside I am glad I'm not a "mean girl". Yet those issues go through my mind when events unfold.

If you read my previous blog, you know that a guy simply quit speaking, emailing, texting or anything...for literally no reason (after dating two years). I don't have a problem with breaking up even if it's painful for one or both people involved. Well...funny, but finally, two weeks later he texts. It's almost humorous...I mean after two weeks, why? Of course, the text comes in late at night when I am wanting to get to sleep. I didn't bother to answer in the end..but the plethora of responses that went through my mind certainly kept me awake. First I was angry that he had the audacity to even text after such a long break. Then the responses came (in my mind of course). His text was simply "You doing ok?" The responses that didn't get sent but certainly went through my mind were things like, "Nope, I died", "Really, now you want to converse?", "FANTASTIC!", "are you drunk?"and of course..."wtfe...how dare you contact me now". In the end I spent several minutes coming up with these ideas and finally falling to sleep much later than anticipated. The truth is this happens to me almost every time I break up with a guy, no matter who's idea that is. That is to say, guys always try and come back...why? If it didn't work out...it just didn't work out...leave it.

Now, if he had ended things in person, as mature people do...I do believe we would/could have remained good friends. Even perhaps if you tried an apology for bad manners, being uncommunicative and immature. But when you are so disrespectful to me, to the relationship and time spent together, what is it you expect?

Boys without Balls

I have had two serious boyfriend in the past 5 years. Both were intelligent, financially stable, well-educated men who prided themselves on their accomplishments and being well mannered. The truth is, when it came to relationships, they were totally the opposite. Therefore, they are none of which they envision themselves as. Both boys (real men have to earn that title), think it is simply okay to stop talking, never having the balls to simply talk like a well mannered, well educated person would. A simple, "this isn't working out and I think we should call it quits" is better than just silence with no closure. I'd dare say, it's even mature and adult like to talk. I'd do it myself, but after that time it simply isn't worth the effort when I've done nothing wrong... So modern men around the world, stop breaking up over text messages or just ignoring the situation and get some balls. Have the manners and decency to meet, and face it for closure. It is extremely hard to earn respect otherwise.